Category Archives: Nest
It has been a week of muscles spasms and no exercise accept for a 90-minute restorative yoga class at St Paul’s in Marquette. I did not even feel like taking photos today. I just felt like crying. Thank goodness, I am blessed with a man who can lay beside me until I calm.
I chose a different adventure. To the Marquette Food Co-op for dinner fixings and a trip to Every Day Wines for a bottle of wine.
I know nothing of wine. I am nervous it will make my condition worse. But I am hoping, too for a bit of relaxation.
My muscles spasms have raged this week, at times incapacitating me. Then sometimes they are just annoying. I almost cried at the Marquette Historical Center when I was up on the second floor trying to shoot the dome straight up and a lean to the railing almost dropped me to my knees.
My legs are even sore. (They were not the week I ran three times.)
The cramps and spasms started Sunday (today is Saturday) on the trails of Presque Isle. My body had gone into a fit. I call these flare-ups. I hurt from between my shoulders, to my toes.
Some weeks I can run 3 times for a total of 8-9 miles, go to yoga, help with a special needs swim, and hike. I can shovel snow. I can do my job with ease. Then the next week a flare has me in its grip. All I can bring forth are tears.
I thought long today on “nests” and “nesting” how I wanted to be cradled and lulled.
Some may ask, “Kim, why are you writing this and why so negative?”
It is not that I am trying to dwell on the negative, it is that I am trying to cope and in a way examine the “messages” I am suppose to be receiving in my recovery.
I know I am more than my body. I know this.
Is it wrong to love the feeling of flying thru the woods on a trail full of roots and rocks. To feel the wind rush past? I think not.
Tonight I pray for healing. Understanding.
I cannot get my mind around the idea of acceptance.
This was the first week that felt out of my grasp, I was vacant and distracted. Yet, I found moments of deep relaxation and joy. I took a promotion at work which brings me back to full-time status. I spent the last 4 months gearing up for change, committing to my art. But the practical came rushing back in. I took the job. What does this mean? Will I continue to accomplish in my creative life?
So today, I took strongly to procrastination and laziness. I still managed to put four new framed photos in the gallery, visit with artists and friends, play games, and cook an awesome dinner. And posted my weekly CED 2011 chronicle on Monday (albeit at night, but not late).
The close of Febraury has me questioning my Passion. That scares me! But I look forward to March’s optional theme of Nest. Can I put my hopes and dreams into a NEST. Will they protect and cradle my dreams. Will I have the energies to come home and sit on that nest?
February 20, 2011–Sunday
- Deep cleaning of home, which included rearranging the living room, considering new possibilities.
- Shopping for new clothes for Mike.
- Making a new recipe and straying far from the instructions.
- Posted my Creative Every Day chronicle, on time!
February 21, 2011—Monday
- Zero Degree Artist Cooperative, monthly meeting–but I was ill and stayed home.
February 22, 2011—Tuesday
- Guest Writer, post by Christine Kane.
February 23, 2011—Wednesday
- Sub-taught and it was a rough day.
- Spent the evening searching out job opps.
February 24, 2011—Thursday
- Attended Yoga
- Massage from Anne
- Clear Bags arrived in the mail—readying of photos for sale.
- Job Promotion effective 2/28, found out today!
- Included in the Spring Flora Treasury on Etsy!
February 25, 2011—Friday
- Made it to the YMCA for a work-out.
- Enjoyed the hot-tub.
February 26, 2011—Saturday
- Outhouse Races, South Beach, Scott Falls and more!
- Photo edits.