Create with Kim!

Today I am overwhelmed and exhausted, missing my grandson, and trying to make quality time over the phone? I listened to him play with his new favorite toy—a Tupperware container and plastic measuring cup. My daughter is so precious as she explains Liam’s new games of reaching for shadows on the wall and how he will play Peek-a-Boo forever. He is not crawling (yet) but tries real hard. Somehow, this phone call is enough, for tonight.

I made plans to baby-sit my Grand-Boy in two weeks. Mike and I plot possible presents to pamper my daughter, Ceiri, for her birthday on the 7th. I hope for a week with more time when our schedules allow for us to join in hugs instead of phone calls. I try not to be envious of Patty, the other grandma who watched Liam while my daughter works.

Who would have thought, a grandma at 44 and I am a long way from retiring.

I should stop my long lament and remember today how very blessed I am.

Today, as I worked as a direct care worker I took someone for a walk, helped them rest and nap, played unusual music and exposed them to lively colors and aromas.  Yesterday I was a Spanish and French teacher who also taught and hour of history, and best of all, walking class! I spent the last hour of Friday’s school day walking thru the streets at a lively pace up and down hill (certainly over a mile). It was the perfect exercise for someone who is nursing an arm and feeling guilty about skipping the gym and canceling a training session.

I am already trying to find the silver lining to working on Sunday. I am grabbing my SD card and digital camera. Off work by 2:30 means daylight.

With positive self reinforcement I will make it to Monday—office day—dedicated to writing and photography and furthering my career.

The plan is to work on the “outcome of the outcome” when it comes to my intentions for this year, this free write, and my future. Also during this month is to flesh out a few article ideas and look at markets. I am now carrying index cards to jot affirmations, writing prompts and ideas.

How do I feel: cheated by time, yet recovering equilibrium, and hopeful for the coming day